lets talk labour!!!

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Alright so let’s talk labour, now, full disclosure; If you’re here to read me ramble on about the beauty and majesty of child birth, and how incredibly purposed and fulfilled I felt as a woman completing my womanly and very sacred duty of producing the miracle of life…you may want re evaluate your expectations, or perhaps just skip this post entirely .

I mean child birth. WTF is that all about!!
The. Worst. Pain. You. Could. Ever. Go. Through!!!!!
Now look, I didn’t go in there expecting it to be an easy quick job, I mean I had plenty of mothers approach me with their war stories and tales of child birth, but lets be honest, NOTHING could have prepared me for what I was going to go through. Nothing!!
It wasn’t even the part of pushing a whole human being out of you that was the problem, It was those evil, horrific, excruciating, cruel, unholy contractions!! UNHOLY!!!

Now luckily (and at the same time very unlucky for me) my labour room was packed with my loving family all there to support and help me through it. Or at least try. There was my boyfriend Wayne, whose loving hand I continued to slap violently away throughout the day, as well as my mother, father, sister and mother in law.
Now a quick thank you to my mother in law and sister, who were by far the smartest of the bunch because they sat in the room completely quiet. Wayne and my dad on the other hand were in there talking about “it’s ok Tatiana” “ its fine, it will be over”…I saw red!! side note to all men and expecting fathers, if I can offer you ANY advice, DO NOT, do not, do not, do not, do notttt ever tell a screaming woman whose riving about in pain that “its okay” IT IS NOT OKAY!!!! OKAY??!!
But still, it was my mother who faced the sharpest side of my wrath, but thankfully, she just seemed to take it and completely understood what I was going through.
The nurse was also amazing, she just knew what to say, when to say it and how to say it. Her back rubs were also a big contributor to the sanity I was able to hold on to. In my darkest moments, nearing the end when I couldn’t take it anymore, I felt myself turning into a bit of a monster, but then I remember her saying “Tatiana, what happened, we used to be friends?!“, it really made me laugh, even though I didn’t show it!

And now here I sit, my aching body holding on strong to the memory of whatever traumatic event that it went through, now to think about my period I will get again in a few months, and the thought of menopause that will come in my (very distant) but true future. Hah! God, talk about favoritism of the sexes. Im done!!!

Time to get it 💪

So begins my weight loss journey…again. I took this a day after giving birth exactly 1 week ago, to use as my ‘before’ picture. Also just to remember 🙈 It’s time to get back to getting fit!!!! I wish my favourite gym @crossfitkwetu was on this side of town (guys please open one up in Karen), unfortunately not so I’m looking for something fun to do on these sides, any suggestions welcome 😊😊

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World meet Olive, Olive meet world! <3

Olive Chemeli Karanja-Mutiso born March 6th 1:25pm.
Named after and born on the same day as my wonderful cucu (grandmother) Olive Karanja 🙌

I would just like to say a HUGE thank you to every single one of you who have written texts, whatsapps, emails, fb messages,sent snaps and called etc, I am so sorry I have not gotten in contact or replied or called anyone back yet (even maybe not answering calls etc), its been a bit of a hectic time for me ;p You have made me feel really special and I will get back to you all personally ASAP!

I would also like to give a BIG shoutout to the real MVP, my mother @ellenkaranja who stuck by me through the toughest of times (LITERALLY), sleeping on hospital floors, making sure everyone did everything properly for me, sorting out pillows, rooms, bills…you name it, but most importantly just being there for me through the toughest and most beautiful experience of my life! Mum, I couldn’t have done any of it without you I am so sorry for all the anger during labor!

@wza92 WE MADE IT! I am so in awe of our little beautiful creation, I can not wait for this next chapter of our life ❤
Again, I am so sorry for all the anger during labor haha!

Thank you for being there for me as well famalam; Katarina & @ian_karanja, & @chemeli_partington, YOU GUYS ROCK!!! ❤

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Fave family portrait​ yet ❤

Our first family shoot really 😊 Ecstatic to have been able to get a 2nd maternity shoot with my loves and the LOML @wza_92@poppymiyonga took these beautiful photos of us yesterday and I couldn’t be happier, we had a really fun shoot and I’m so happy that I have one where Bahati Is actually looking at the camera, even crossing her legs like the respectable young lady she is😂! Poppy made us feel super comfortable even though we were struggling to get some poses together 😂 Thanks so much for capturing some beautiful moments, Poppy👏👏👏

Maternity shoot ❤

I wanted to share a pic here that shows more of myself, I’m super proud of this pregnancy and myself to be honest, I’ve been really trying to eat well, with lots of failed days but all in all a balanced lifestyle has helped me feel good about myself at a stage where I’ve been gaining a lot of weight, for a beautiful reason of course! In Kenya it’s very common for everyone around you to keep feeding you because you are “eating for 2”, especially your aunties and grandmothers, they want to make sure you’ve eaten 5 plates of food, it’s been a journey, I’m almost at the due date and feeling great!!! I shared a similar picture on my previous post saying “it’s very scary posting this kind of pic up because let’s face it, I’m in Kenya where you got to be more ‘conservative’ than say if I was still living in the Netherlands I wouldn’t even think twice! But If this was a bikini it would be fine, right?” ” It’s so liberating to have a shoot where your tummy sticking out is a beautiful thing and your not trying to suck in all your ‘flaws’, I felt amazing.
I want to say a big thank you to @lyraaoko for taking these amazing pictures of me and making me feel so comfortable and beautiful during the whole process! @wacukathimba for making me look and feel flawless with her stunning makeup! @doubledeeske for gifting me with pieces from their beautiful and very comfortable nursing line! and last but not least my sister Katarina for coming over at late hours of the day to do my hair and make sure I feel beautiful 😘 It took a village 😂”

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Maternity shoot things 🙌

Ok, so it’s very scary posting this kind of pic up because let’s face it, I’m in Kenya where you got to be more ‘conservative’ than say if I was still living in the Netherlands I wouldn’t even think twice! But If this was a bikini it would be fine, right? To be honest, I Love everything about it, I Love how I look, I Love Bahati playing around me, my precious Olive growing inside me and the fact that it looks like I’m in a dreamy forest. It’s my favourite picture of me, ever! It’s so liberating to have a shoot where your tummy sticking out is a beautiful thing and your not trying to suck in all your ‘flaws’, I felt amazing.
I want to say a big thank you to @lyraaoko for taking these amazing pictures of me and making me feel so comfortable and beautiful during the whole process! @wacukathimba for making me look and feel flawless with her stunning makeup! @doubledeeske for gifting me with pieces from their beautiful and very comfortable nursing line! and last but not least my sister Katarina for coming over at late hours of the day to do my hair and make sure I feel beautiful 😘 It took a village 😂

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Cutest Cupcakes 😍

My sister Katarina had these beautiful and delicious cupcakes made for my baby shower over the weekend! The baby shower was stunning, I had my AMAZING friends and family there along with the very talented band @rozziswork playing, I couldn’t hold back all the happy emotions and started crying all over the place. THANK YOU ALL (you know yourselves) for making my day so special, especially you @katiwiki, you are the best sister a girl could ever ask for!!Screen Shot 2017-04-07 at 11.18.53 AM

Baby shower vibes 🎉

My mum and mother in law organised a beautiful baby shower with all their friends and family for me yesterday, it was such a special day that I will never forget filled with love, advice, happiness, joy, support and my gosh the presents….😍🙈😍 My sister is throwing one this weekend for me and my friends and I can not wait! Just also want to say a big thank you to my sister Katarina for being an amazing photographer for the event and giving a beautiful speech❤

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A great day to have a great day

Today was a great day to have a great day, and a great day it was😀 Got super spoilt by the LOML, Wayne😘  and also decided to take my mums advice and “Be bold” so here I am wearing the most colour I’ve ever worn and the most form fitting top I own as well as my new extremely short hair! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MY ERITREAN AND ETHIOPIAN FAMILY&amp; FRIENDS🎄�Screen Shot 2017-04-07 at 11.13.39 AM