Milestones

Olive is really becoming a big girl, I’ve noticed it over the past week or 2 but I’m REALLY noticing it now. It’s incredible how fast she is growing in such a short amount of time. She is completely holding her neck on her own, her movements are becoming more coordinated and intentional, her poops and Farts are much easier, generally her size as well…It’s all amazing me every day! Her personality is really beginning to come out too which I perceive to be fun, bubbly and happy with bit of diva/drama queen thrown in the mix! 

Everyday I stare at her in awe, she is amazing!

#ProudMama

Moments โค

Just me, my girl & my triple chin ๐Ÿ’

Thank you so much for this EPIC picture @wearebintis ๐Ÿ˜˜ Taken yesterday at kihingo village after a full days work abs meeting ๐Ÿ˜ด

Hair done at Leo’s salon ๐Ÿ’

Beer & Stares๐Ÿบ

So today we went to the hub, my boyfriend was drinking a beer and I REALLY REALLY wanted some, it’s a Sunday, I had a very long week and I decided yeah, to hell with it, why not! I didn’t have formula with me so I fed her right then, made sure she was full and decided to do a rushed relaxed beer and head home to give her formula when I was done. 

I got so many stares, rightfully so as they had just seen me breastfeeding and now drinking, people must have thought I was such a bad mum, but anyway I really enjoyed that beer though, it was exactly what I needed after the month I’ve had! โค

Sidenote; Wah wah wah, I had 2 beers and I felt like I had gone out clubbing ๐Ÿ˜‚

Not so littleย 

OMG GUYS! This little girl of mine is not so little anymore, look at her completely 100% supporting her head without any sort of support ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ 

#ProudMama

P.s such a crappy photo, oh well ๐Ÿ™ˆ

Good Morning

Life is hard!

Don’t get me wrong, I love being a mum, I love my life and everything that’s happening at the moment but it’s SO hard. I think you all know from previous posts as well as if you know me in real lifeย I love my daughter, Boyfriend & dog, and I am so grateful for everything but man… life has been kidogo (a little bit) rough recently; super early mornings, super late nights, 2 full time jobs; being a mum first and foremost & full time Social media marketing as well as photography gigs and part time work as a photographer, whatever I can get on the side. It’s been a rough month for the Karanja-Mutiso household despite all the hard work, people not paying up and expecting way too much of you, perhaps even asking things of you that are not your role seems to have been the may theme, so I mean I feel like I’m working 5 jobs not really earning as much as I should be, always worrying about where money is going and what it’s being spent on has been actually really rough, between rent, food costs, constant immunizations and hospital bills for Olive, vet and food costs for Bahati, taxi’s etc, I’ve been stressed out every single day this month! I’ve had breakdowns almost every single day and I’m trying to just keep positive. There are amazingly positive days then just really bad days but stress has accompanied them all! Being a full-time mum is even harder than giving birth to be honest even though I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Everything just seems to be catching up with me and not only that, I feel like because of this I’m completely stressed out all the time and that I may take it out on people around me (I’m so sorry Wayne), and I also might not be able to see my friends as much as I would like but I just want everyone to know how much I love you all!!

Wow…what a jumble of words, definitely a reflection of life right now but that’s my #REALTALK for the day.

Love & Light

 

 

Baby love โค

My sister is actually just hilarious! As much as she loves her little Godbaby, hair is her absolute everything. She helped me babysit today while I was working at Leo’s, she walked in carrying one (my) baby, then left carrying another (her baby- human hair extensions) that you can see her staring at so lovingly ๐Ÿ˜‚

Doc Visit

How annoying is it that every time your child seems sick then as soon as you take her to the doctor all her symptoms seem to have gone? EVERY TIME ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™ˆ

Ok so there turned out to be absolutely nothing wrong with O even though I am super worried about her blocked/runny nose and how it hasn’t gone away in like 2 weeks!!!! Doc says it can stay for even 3 weeks and as long as she’s otherwise doing ok, she’s fine.

One thing that the Doc said that I will always carry with me is that “babies don’t lie, if they are sick they will let you know”. I know this seems like a “duhhh, of course” kind if thing but as a new mother, these sort of statements helpthat me get through a lot of worrying moments I have!

Sidenote; we finally got her insurance thanks to Wayne’s mum, which makes popping down to the doctors that much easier! Thank you Aunty Linda โคโค